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<p dir="ltr">As i was driving on the straight road, i felt a slight movement to the right. I thought it was strong wind or maybe my hand steered a bit to the right, so i tried to move the steering wheel back to neutral position. I hold on to steering wheel with both hands and keep it in a neutral position like i always do on a straight road.. Ok, all was well and i continued the journey home.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Then suddenly, i felt that slight movement again. Started to feel uneasy as a few days ago,dad told me that he felt my car alignment was a bit off, but we got it checked out a few days ago and was told the alignment was good. I tried to stay calm,it must have been the heavy rain and strong wind again. Again i steered it back to the middle and continue driving.</p>
<p dir="ltr">And then came the split second of event  and the next thing that i know after it happened was i literally cheated death. I felt a sudden sharp movement to the right; this time the movement was big and i could not control it. Then the car swayed left and right again. It felt as if i was in a racing car in a video game; as i am not good at video games,when i play a racing game on playstation, the car then to sway left and right at sharp turnings.</p>
<p dir="ltr">The next second, my car was turning 180 degree on a highway. I could see a  lorry far behind as my car turn the opposite direction. I knew i was going to crash. At that moment, a few things ran into my mind.. My dad, my mum, the possibility of ending up in the hospital and ruining my upcoming trip and God. People say that when you are at the brink of death, the first things that come to mind are the things are most important to you. So i guess at this stage of my life, those were the things that i valued the most.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I do not know what happened next, but the next moment,i was facing the opposite direction again, which means my car literally turned 360 degrees. There was a drain on the left and i felt the car tilting to the left and then it slowed down, just before it hit the steel bar of the road divider and at that moment,my gut feeling told me to hit the brake hard. The next moment, i felt my hands and legs shaking and my mind was blank. It was a miracle that i was still ok, nobody is hurt and my car was still intact. The whole thing only took a a few seconds but it felt like forever.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Then i saw a lorry stopped in front of my car and an uncle came down from the lorry in the heavy rain to ask if i am okay. I told him i was okay, he checked my tyres and then he helped me move my car to the roadside, as it was half hanging on a slope. It was lucky that he did not ram into me and i did not hit him, and he was so nice to come down from his lorry despite the heavy rain.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I really thank God that i escaped unhurt, despite such ordeal. I believe that it is God's divine intervention that there was no cars nearby and and the car stopped at the safest point. And it dawn to me that God still has work for me to be done on earth.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Seeing so many cases in hospital makes me feel that life is short, which is why i always want quality time for me and my family; doing things that i really enjoy and spending time with people who means a lot to me and not spend my whole life chasing money and status. And after this ordeal, i hold it even stronger.. Treasure your life and time and make it count by doing things you enjoy, and treasure the people around you always.</p>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ironically, this is the first and the last post for the year 2013.. posted on day 365 of year 2013.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">To sum up my year, 2013 was basically a year of responsibilities
and decision makings, especially job related. Being a medical officer means you
are now independent on your feet, making decisions on your own and taking
responsibility of your house officers. Working in the emergency department, a lot
of those decisions are within split seconds.. to intubate or not intubate a
patient.. to do or not to do certain x ray when you think it is not indicated
but patient and family members demands it to be done.. to admit or discharge a
patient, and if admit, to admit to which specialty/department.. It is really
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">A big part of 2013 was also to decide on what i want to do next.. I know, everyone has been asking me the same question " so what you want to specialize in ah?".. seriously, after a year of asking myself the same question over and over again everyday, i still do not have the answer. Probably i have been in ED for too long.. Seeing people get into accidents with head injuries and fractures that would change their lives forever; young seemingly healthy people suddenly collapse and dies.. Life is so fragile and i do not know what is next. Makes me just wanna live life as it without throwing myself into another 4-5 years of hard work and stress but to regret the lost of time later if something do happen. One year back, i was at the crossroad and now i still am. </span><a href="http://calyn-l-o-v-e.blogspot.com/2012/03/at-crossroad.html">http://calyn-l-o-v-e.blogspot.com/2012/03/at-crossroad.html</a>.. <span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Feels like being trapped in a car, lost on a road full of moving cars; i see my friends and colleagues moving on but i can't seem to move anywhere. That's basically where i am right now.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">On a happier note, 2013 has brought a lot of sweet memories.. Going on trips with family and friends, exploring different parts of the world with my camera, sharing the joy of 2 hearts uniting together as one, sharing the joy of my sister's graduation.. The highlights of all would probably be my HK/Macau trip and the photo i captured winning 1st prize in The Star's Mother's Day contest. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">But 2013 ended with a sad note for me, as i lost a dear friend and sister in Christ, Adelene Joyce William to SLE. Today at work, i encountered another young patient with SLE who came in for fever and it really reminded me of her and what she has gone through </span><a href="http://adelewill.blogspot.com/2013/06/living-with-lupus.html?m=1">http://adelewill.blogspot.com/2013/06/living-with-lupus.html?m=1</a>. <span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Still hard to believe that she is gone forever.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am working double shift today on the last day of 2013,working overnight seeing patients when everyone is out celebrating.. but i will not whine today because looking back, there is just so much blessings that i have received from God and i am just happy that i am as alive and healthy as i am today and blessed with wonderful family and friends around to support me. Though i do secretly hope for a good shift tonight with no patients..haha.. which is most probably not going to happen=))</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Thank you 2013 for the memories.. Welcome 2014, please be good and wishing everyone a blessed and Happy New Year!!</span></div>
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I will drop everything and run a code blue for hours trying to keep you alive!!</div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">As surgeons, there are so many things we have to know. We have to know we have what it takes. We have to know how to take care of our patients... and how to take care of each other. Eventually, we even have to figure out how to take care of ourselves. As surgeons we have to be in the know. But as human beings, sometimes it's better to stay in the dark, because in the dark there may be fear, but there's also hope. </span></div>
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Should I conform to the norm..</div>
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Should i just be contented at what i have..</div>
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I need a new motivation..</div>
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A new direction..</div>
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Like a lost sheep..</div>
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Looking for a shepherd to guide my soul..</div>
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For i am at a crossroad..</div>
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Heart beats fast</div>
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Colors and promises</div>
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How to be brave</div>
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How can I love when I'm afraid to fall</div>
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But watching you stand alone</div>
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All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow</div>
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One step closer</div>
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I have died everyday waiting for you</div>
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Darling don't be afraid I have loved you</div>
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For a thousand years</div>
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I'll love you for a thousand more</div>
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Time stands still</div>
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Beauty in all she is</div>
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I will be brave</div>
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I will not let anything take away</div>
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What's standing in front of me</div>
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Every breath</div>
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Every hour has come to this</div>
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I have died everyday waiting for you</div>
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Darling don't be afraid I have loved you</div>
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For a thousand years</div>
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I'll love you for a thousand more</div>
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And all along I believed I would find you</div>
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Time has brought your heart to me</div>
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I have loved you for a thousand years</div>
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I'll love you for a thousand more</div>
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One step closer</div>
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I have died everyday waiting for you</div>
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Darling don't be afraid I have loved you</div>
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For a thousand years</div>
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I'll love you for a thousand more</div>
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And all along I believed I would find you</div>
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Time has brought your heart to me</div>
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I have loved you for a thousand years</div>
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I'll love you for a thousand more</div>
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Witnessing a marriage is really beautiful.. Marriage.. It's when 2 people makes the commitment to be together for the rest of their life; accepting each others' differences; sharing life's bittersweet moments; always together in sickness and in health. </div>
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Some sees marriage as a burden, some rush into it because of accidents, some use up a few years to plan for their dream wedding. But no matter what the circumstances are, when vows are exchanged, one should always remember and honour it.</div>
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Genesis 2:22-24 : Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man. The man said, " This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called woman, for she was taken out of a man." For this reason, a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh.</div>
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I was at my cousin's wedding dinner last weekend and my uncle gave a speech that night which i believed left a big impression to everyone who was present that night. " It's okay for couples to quarrel, but at the end of the day, u must not forget to say three big words".. The first thing that comes to your mind?? I LOVE YOU.. No,you are wrong..haha.. Actually, the 3 words are " You are right, my dear". Always say this before you sleep to your partner, just to keep the peace at home" </div>
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So at the end of the day, marriage is not all about love only. It's about trust, tolerance, acceptance, sacrifice and understanding between two different people; so that two hearts can unite and become one to form a family and a life together.<span style="font-size: 12px;"> </span>The goal of a marriage is not to think alike, but to think together.</div>
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As scary as the commitments might sound, marriage is still a beautiful thing because i believe every marriage is God's plan and a match made in Heaven. ♥ </div>
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" I miss being young, I miss being me as a child"</div>
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Worries and problems in life will never go away and keeps on adding</div>
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It's Chinese New Year again. During this time as we celebrate this joyous occasion, i am reminded of the people and the memories that are dear to my heart..<br />
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I could still remember 3 years ago, back in 2009, i was back as usual one day before CNY eve. We went over to Ah Gong's place. Ah Gong has been having on and off fever for the past one week; it was just a fever, prior to that he was a fairly healthy man. Ah Gong asked for me, whether i came back and i went over to greet him. Daddy felt Ah Gong's forehead and he was cold. We put a blanket over him, greeted him goodbye and headed home. That night, Ah Gong was still happily telling stories about his past to my aunt and uncle who came home to celebrate CNY. Who would have thought it was the last goodbye. Mummy woke me up the morning of CNY eve and told me Ah Gong was gone. He died peacefully in his sleep.</div>
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Being an ex-headmaster, Ah Gong was strict and he has his temper. He was very thrifty and calculative when it comes to money. Back then, we couldn't understand why. But after he was gone, only then we realized his true intentions. He was thrifty so that his children and grandchildren can enjoy the fruits of his labor. We set up a fund with the money he left us for gatherings and special occasions. I believe it was Ah Gong's way of keeping the family together after he was gone.</div>
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And 2 days ago as i step back into my Popo's ( my grandmother as we used to call her) house, when everyone was busy eating and chatting, something else caught my attention. It was an oxygen tank hidden at the end of my grandfather's bed. Those who read my previous blog earlier <a href="http://calyn-l-o-v-e.blogspot.com/2010/04/memories-of-popo.html">http://calyn-l-o-v-e.blogspot.com/2010/04/memories-of-popo.html</a> would have known that popo suffered from bronchiectasis and was oxygen dependent during her last years of her life. Looking at the oxygen tank brought a surge of emotions as i was reminded of the times i celebrated CNY with her. When i was younger, i enjoyed going over to her house on CNY eve to watch her " pai tian gong" and listen to the sound of loud firecrackers. I missed the times when i would just sit and eavesdrop when she is chatting with other relatives during CNY to get updates on how others are doing.</div>
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Chinese New Year is a time for celebration; we eat, we drink and we enjoy ourselves with family and friends. But i think somehow or rather, we can't deny that the older generations play an important role during these times. They are the ones who hold the key to uniting the family together. They may not participate much in conversations or show their love openly, but they are the reason everyone comes back for reunion. Their smile warm our hearts and it puts a smile on our face as well.</div>
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<br /></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-70531364890095528232011-05-19T03:01:00.000-07:002011-05-19T04:38:42.926-07:00♥ Sunway Pyramid High Tea High Fashion Makeover Contest ♥<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeDEb3q5fvyr2GeE7Omwa5eXpVPRP7E_rnGfdLBJ12WYzobLvymVdidjY3ItRLsOoXGtzV7iEOzXkPlPhTNb_Nr-opzJnYHxScAINqsStzIn8ujluYt44MqRGmUnjZJ0mIv-axDrhaPF1L/s1600/228751_10150195141428794_36579378793_6865300_3465186_n.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 343px; height: 480px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeDEb3q5fvyr2GeE7Omwa5eXpVPRP7E_rnGfdLBJ12WYzobLvymVdidjY3ItRLsOoXGtzV7iEOzXkPlPhTNb_Nr-opzJnYHxScAINqsStzIn8ujluYt44MqRGmUnjZJ0mIv-axDrhaPF1L/s400/228751_10150195141428794_36579378793_6865300_3465186_n.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5608387406604686626" /></a><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#333333;">It was a sweet surprise when i open my facebook a few days ago postcall and found out i was selected as one of the Top 20 finalist for the Sunway Pyramid High Fashion High Tea Makeover Contest. </span></span><div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 19px; 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Love you all!!..Muacks <img class="emote_img" src="http://static.ak.fbcdn.net/images/blank.gif" alt="♥" style="border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; height: 16px; vertical-align: top; width: 16px; background-image: url(http://static.ak.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v1/zC/r/eKCEtE1PXyK.png); background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; bottom: 1px; margin-bottom: -2px; position: relative; background-position: -224px 0px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; " /></span></span></div><div><br /></div></div></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-87326374397516982662011-03-11T20:43:00.000-08:002011-03-11T22:52:39.130-08:00♥ What are words ...♥<span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(102, 102, 102); font-family:Arial, 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, sans-serif;"><span style="font-weight: bold; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">Today is my off day and what a beautiful day to start off with by listening to this song. It's a song sang by a guy with a beautiful heart to his fiancee. They had been together for 8 years, engagged for 2 years and 2 months before their marriage, the girl met with an accident and subsequently suffered brain injury and was paralyzed. This guy never gave up on her, he said " what kind of guy would i be if i walk out when she needed me most". He was prepared to be there with her through thick and thin, though sickness and health. This guy was a top 40 finalist in the recent season of American Idol but did not make it to the Top 24. I haven't been watching American Idol for a long long time, but this guy truly touches my heart and the lyrics of this song he sang almost moved me to tears. 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;font-size:medium;">What are words</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">If you really don’t mean them</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">When you say them</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">What are words</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">If they’re only for good times</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">Then they don’t</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">When it’s love</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">Yeah, you say them out loud</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">Those words, They never go away</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">They live on, even when we’re gone</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">And I know an angel was sent just for me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">And I know I’m meant to be where I am</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">And I’m gonna be</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">Standing right beside her tonight</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">And I’m gonna be by your side</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;">I would never leave when she needs me most</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">What are words</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">If you really don’t mean them</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">When you say them</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">What are words</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">If they’re only for good times</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">Then they don’t</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">When it’s love</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">Yeah, you say them out loud</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">Those words, They never go away</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">They live on, even when we’re gone</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">Anywhere you are, I am near</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">Anywhere you go, I’ll be there</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">And I’m gonna be here forever more</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">Every single promise I keep</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">Cuz what kind of guy would I be</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">If I was to leave when you need me most</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /><br /></span><span class="fullpost"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">I’m forever keeping my angel close</span></span></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, sans-serif;color:#666666;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, sans-serif;color:#666666;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, sans-serif;color:#666666;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">Beautiful isn't it? I am in love with this song right now </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 21px; font-family:'century gothic', Times, serif;font-size:10.8333px;">♥</span></div></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-15433766934549442362011-02-08T05:41:00.001-08:002011-02-08T06:33:05.049-08:00Looking through a patient's eye<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://s3prod.weheartit.netdna-cdn.com/images/6956953/tumblr_l63g5wMixJ1qzm7cco1_500_large.jpg?1297084526"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 600px; height: 337px;" src="http://s3prod.weheartit.netdna-cdn.com/images/6956953/tumblr_l63g5wMixJ1qzm7cco1_500_large.jpg?1297084526" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">Tagged in trauma ward today.. Looking at patients there can be a pretty sad thing.</span><div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">Chronic young patient, post motor vehicle accident,</span></div></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">Lying on the bed, most probably will be bedridden for life,</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">With multiple pressure sores and contractures,</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">Enduring the pain of dressing, bladder catheterisation and multiple needle pokes daily</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">in pain, but couldn't speak,</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">All he could do is communicate with tears and limited body movement, just like a child..</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">the sound of secretions through the trachy tube indicates his call for help but in vain..</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">Staring with eyes of hopelessness and despair; no future, all plans destroyed just in a split second</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">It is a sad scene.. Hard to see but harder for the person to bear.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">And it is still Chinese New Year. The sight of a red container with new year cookies at the patient's bedside reminds me of how lucky i am to be able to celebrate this festive season with my loved ones and I thank God for that. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">We eat, we drink, we enjoy.. But all this patient could do was stare at the red container with cookies..</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">Who is to be blamed for the accident ? I don't know.. But i guess for now it doesn't really matter because what is done cannot be undone..</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">At this point, i just feel sorry for him and his family members.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div><br /></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-33575387230905999822011-02-01T20:51:00.000-08:002011-02-02T02:05:29.301-08:00♥ Goodbye Medical.. Hello Surgical ...♥<div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://s3prod.weheartit.netdna-cdn.com/images/6790208/tumblr_lfy9xiTBXU1qf30uco1_500_large.jpg?1296585647"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 600px; height: 415px;" src="http://s3prod.weheartit.netdna-cdn.com/images/6790208/tumblr_lfy9xiTBXU1qf30uco1_500_large.jpg?1296585647" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">It's been a while since my last update .. medical posting has been crazily hectic, though it was better towards the end with the shift system. 4 months gone by faster than i thought it would and i've finally completed one of my most dreaded posting especially in HTAR, Klang. Well, this time around, leaving medical gives me a huge sense of relieve, unlike in paediatrics where i felt sad and left with a heavy heart. I guess it's true when people say you will be most attached with your 1st posting.. Or maybe i do like paeds??..haha</span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Medical posting in HTAR can be like a war zone; the workload can be overwhelming and everyone is pretty stressed out. Stepping into ward ( especially the general male ward ) gives u a sense of never-ending work; with extension beds everywhere, even in front of the HO room, toilet and at the counter and non-stop influx of patients with some poor patients having no beds but have to sit at chair 1 or chair 2 until a bed is available. Ward equipments and medical supplies are limited and you will find yourself walking from one end of the ward to the other end looking for supplies that you need to work with. Running down the stairs from the 8th floor to the lab to send down an ABG or other bloods stat multiple times a day is a daily routine for all of us which is why most of us can lose weight in medical=p..</span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">But this posting has taught me a lot, especially in terms of managing patient and communicating with patients and family members. When dealing with ill and sick patients in the acute cubicle, i learned to be more vigilant and alert. I performed active resuscitation and learned to break bad news to family members. I learned patience and teamwork, i learned confidence and working with speed. One thing lacking probably, i didn't have much chance when it came to procedure wise because i was always too busy with ward work and clerking patients.</span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">I've seen a lot and encountered a lot of patients in medical. I remembered this particular uncle who was very angry at me because i took multiple attempts to get an ABG ( it was my 1st few ABG during my medical posting) but later on smile to me and told me sorry ; he didn't meant what he said, he said those words out of pain. Unfortunately, he did not survive. There was another time when i had to poke a patient with difficult vascular access, we almost cried together.. the patient was begging me not to poke anymore and i was begging in my heart to get back flow into my syringe. Some family members are pretty nice too; one of a patient's family member saw me sharing a chair at the counter with a staff nurse and he took the chair he was sitting and offered it to me. These are small little things that warm my heart.</span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFIRayvEjoxc5rsoXqgTofyhb5iydwZKgN-z03nFDkI_2gCoAWS7mikov7_gWM2hnJNqbPezIyEJMzsm4SeI-NeTYzZZSfnVDyQGmjZnP2AP8wHdyrBDNnVx1cDz51vQ9xNYTXpqU9N6nK/s400/2011-01-08+11.10.52.jpg+edit.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 364px; height: 480px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFIRayvEjoxc5rsoXqgTofyhb5iydwZKgN-z03nFDkI_2gCoAWS7mikov7_gWM2hnJNqbPezIyEJMzsm4SeI-NeTYzZZSfnVDyQGmjZnP2AP8wHdyrBDNnVx1cDz51vQ9xNYTXpqU9N6nK/s400/2011-01-08+11.10.52.jpg+edit.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Amidst the crazy workload, medical was still fun in some ways because i gained friendship and trust. Thanks to my dearie Soo Fan and roommate Chuan, the two gals who would always call me out to makan and deliver me food for me when i am oncall. Thanks to Shin Yee and Li Ying who has always been a big help in the ward, especially in line setting and settling certain things during the acute shift system. To Deepa, my best friend and leader.. thanks for your time and attention, I miss the times we actually sit together and talk, or go for outings. Nowdays, you are so busy and we don't really have much time to hang out. Don't worry too much about things, i trust you will be a good leader and i hope for you to join me in surgical next=). Thanks to all my other collegues, it is a pleasure working with you all ( too many names to mention..hehe). To my specialist and MO, thanks for all your guidance and teaching. When i first entered medical, i am pretty intimidated by some of them but in the end they turned out to be very nice and fun people to work with. Thanks for putting your trust in me, it is very encouraging and it makes me want to do better. And of course not forgetting the staff nurses, Kak Zie, Kak Pah, Kak Syikin, Fadzillah, Shalina, Hasanah.. your experiences at work has taught me a lot.</span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjGJ4KunS2E5rOowYKB_TGc4-QBooJ3RaOClKgxpZiheY8RYew_nErsHKblMhiYywwvA-E2aF5U-Ry4HTzkBdPuraAMXv4XVV0qw6IV22SWEUZqp5Z-oEoK03Bs2BCoR6vhuEFu-JXB7Juq/s1600/2010-12-21+21.20.21.jpg+edit.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 480px; height: 360px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjGJ4KunS2E5rOowYKB_TGc4-QBooJ3RaOClKgxpZiheY8RYew_nErsHKblMhiYywwvA-E2aF5U-Ry4HTzkBdPuraAMXv4XVV0qw6IV22SWEUZqp5Z-oEoK03Bs2BCoR6vhuEFu-JXB7Juq/s400/2010-12-21+21.20.21.jpg+edit.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5569024850476205202" /></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 15.8333px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Like always, i believed that God was with me every step of the way and He always work in His own ways to get me through something. Like how i was lucky to be the last batch to have a written exam instead of viva although initially i felt unlucky because i was called up at the very last minute for the written assessment. I will be entering my 3rd posting; my next pit stop is surgical. It will be another 4 months of exploration and self-searching. Having to start all over again in a new environment with new faces is always scary. But as for now, it's holidays 1st, no work for the next 5 days. Happy Chinese New Year to all and happy holidays..hugs </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(180, 31, 73); line-height: 26px; font-size:18.3333px;"><a href="http://calyn-l-o-v-e.blogspot.com/2010/11/to-hold-on-or-let-go.html" style="color: rgb(60, 38, 14); text-decoration: none; display: inline !important; font-weight: normal; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">♥ </span></a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:15.8333px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">=)</span></span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhbv8KOyMn87yQ6RfVhoJUfwNG4qK9Div8shYuYuPM0HOIND72lQGMpCCGPsVXdwtL7eMUzTnX6I3uz8HN_aBrotR8gqhOtPE_oPkZwmqTrL4ikUNCYL6saRLC9wAWzA8JtgGlyGspKSa1X/s1600/165549_477689382908_526757908_5840855_5333145_n.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 480px; height: 198px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhbv8KOyMn87yQ6RfVhoJUfwNG4qK9Div8shYuYuPM0HOIND72lQGMpCCGPsVXdwtL7eMUzTnX6I3uz8HN_aBrotR8gqhOtPE_oPkZwmqTrL4ikUNCYL6saRLC9wAWzA8JtgGlyGspKSa1X/s400/165549_477689382908_526757908_5840855_5333145_n.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5569027355397924962" /></a></div><div><div> </div></div></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-59656814999273075202010-11-17T05:21:00.000-08:002010-11-25T06:50:56.069-08:00♥ To hold on or let go..<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://s3prod.weheartit.netdna-cdn.com/images/4306468/255v23n_large_large.png?1286727824"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 384px; height: 283px;" src="http://s3prod.weheartit.netdna-cdn.com/images/4306468/255v23n_large_large.png?1286727824" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">2 patients who are NAR died during my call few days ago. NAR stands for no active resuscitation, meaning that in the event of collapse or when the patient's condition is deteriorating, no active intervention like CPR or intubation will be done. When a patient is very old and ill with a lot of co-morbids and bad prognosis, the family members will be counselled for NAR. It is a choice that the family members would have to make, a very though one.</span></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">My specialist told a patient's family member that in view of a patient's co-morbids and old age, even if he survives this time, he would not live for long, probably a year or two. I couldn't imagine how hard it would be for them to decide. If it was me, i would want the extra year or two to spend with my loved ones. I would want everything to be done when it is still possible to do something. But then again, it would also mean prolonging the suffering of a patient. Standing at the patient's point of view is a totally different situation. During that year or two, there will be multiple hospital admissions, tubes and needles all over, multiple branula insertions and blood taking and painful bed sores all over the body. I have a patient telling me that she would rather die than go through procedures like endoscopy.</span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">To counsel patient's family member for NAR seems cruel and believe me, it's not easy because you have to be gentle and use the right words at the right time. It's a whole new encounter for me because i haven't seen it done back in paeds posting. It feels like you are passing on a death sentence to another person. But i believe as much as it's difficult for me to deliver the message to the patient's family members, it's even harder for the family members to decide because ultimately their decision will literally speaking determine how long the patient will live or be kept alive. It's painful to decide to end the life of your loved ones, but it's also painful to watch them suffer in pain. </span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">So, is it better to hold on or to let go? Seriously I don't know.. Letting go is never easy, but holding on could be just as difficult. </span></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-43083092432609880332010-10-14T07:24:00.000-07:002010-10-16T00:21:30.600-07:00♥ A heartwarming tale of an aunty and his son ♥<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://s3prod.weheartit.netdna-cdn.com/images/4285011/tumblr_la0uzbI6ks1qbw4g9o1_500_large.jpg?1286626156"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 334px;" src="http://s3prod.weheartit.netdna-cdn.com/images/4285011/tumblr_la0uzbI6ks1qbw4g9o1_500_large.jpg?1286626156" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><br />Tired.. Busy.. Stressful.. The workload in medical posting can be really overwhelming. But amidst the busyness and the overcrowding in the ward, something caught my attention. It was a chinese lady in my cubicle and her son who is probably in his thirties. When i first clerked her during admission, her son was the one who accompanied her, answering most of my questions. At times, i am not sure if he understood my question because he just smiles and say yes to most of my questions. <div><br /></div><div>His mother has severe kyphosis with a very hunched back. She was put in the first cubicle which is very far away from the toilet but her son patiently took her hand and walked small steps with her to the toilet. I told him that he could use the wheelchair because it is safer and easier for his mother. He smiled at me and nod. His mother's bed was an extension bed and i would say that it was not easy to manipulate a wheelchair in between the limited spaces either, but he was patient=). </div><div><br /></div><div>This aunty was in the ward for 3 days. Everyday it was only her son sitting by her side. There's not much conversation but he would sit there by her bedside day and night, attending to her every needs. Everyday, his son would come and ask me " Dr, when can my mummy go home?" ( the exact same words but in chinese). Most people in their ward only use the word mother or mum or mak or mama ( mandarin); so hearing the word "mummy", it somehow feels heartwarming because i myself call my mum mummy too. </div><div><br /></div><div>Finally the aunty can be discharged from the ward. Usually, when a patient is for discharge, it takes a while to settle everything because we need to prescribe the medicine and write referral letters. And family members will be bugging us at the counter asking us when can they go and how long more they need to wait. But i remember him particularly because he was different. It was the other way round. Despite me and the staff nurse telling him that his mother's discharge is ready and he can settle everything at the counter, he just smiled and nod each time. It was 5pm and almost dinner time, perhaps he was waiting for that. He waited patiently for dinner to be served at 6pm and waited for his mother to finish her dinner. </div><div><br /></div><div>This poor aunty has very severe kyphosis and is suffering from backache which prevents her from sleeping at night. I wrote her a referral letter to orthopaedics and i hope they could help her ease her pain. </div><div><br /></div><div>So there's goes the story about the aunty and his son.. Through him, i see the love, sacrifice, patience and responsiblity of a son to his mother..Makes me miss my family dearly and reminds me to love and give to my parents just as how they love and made sacrifices for me. </div><div><br /></div><div>I will remember this heartwarming tale about this aunty and his son. And yeah, i am still tired and exhausted.. </div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://s3prod.weheartit.netdna-cdn.com/images/4394556/tumblr_l905l7KDNz1qaobbko1_500_large.png?1287151987"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 400px;" src="http://s3prod.weheartit.netdna-cdn.com/images/4394556/tumblr_l905l7KDNz1qaobbko1_500_large.png?1287151987" border="0" alt="" /></a></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-36996251208512102202010-09-25T00:08:00.000-07:002010-09-25T08:00:19.099-07:00♥ Saying Goodbye to Paediatrics with a heavy heart.. ♥<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3788053/tumblr_l7js7uYZLw1qaw8hzo1_400_large.jpg?1283937571"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 532px;" src="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3788053/tumblr_l7js7uYZLw1qaw8hzo1_400_large.jpg?1283937571" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: justify;">As i walked out of the paediatric ward yesterday after work, my heart was heavy and filled with sadness.. It was my last day in paediatrics. Yesterday was a day with mixed feelings. Part of me was happy and relieved that i finally finished the posting succesfully without getting extended but part of me was reluctant to leave the department where it has been a comfort zone for me now.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I still remembered when i first entered paediatrics, i was so lost and blur. Was pretty lucky to start my posting in Ward 7D, where the workload was not that much and sometimes HO even outnumbered the patients ;p.. Started learning how to clerk and manage cases like Dengue and AGE; calculating urine output, assessing hydration status and calculating fluid requirements became day in day out jobs. Was sweating away and struggling with the kid first time i inserted a branula in a child. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Then had to deal with neonates which is totally new for me in terms of examination and diagnosis because neonatal peadriatrics wasn't a main focus back then in medical school. Handling a neonate case can be pretty scary actually. I will have palpitation everytime a baby comes in with high VSB level; will pray hard that i get the blood fast and send it down stat, and inform the MO as soon as possible.. Or when a newborn comes in tachypnoeic and saturation does not pick up, i will be super worried too.. But taking blood with a blue needle and drop method is quite an eye opener and it's fun when u get it=)</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3164523/tumblr_l5i5egygMs1qc63yeo1_500_large.jpg?1280242068"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 345px;" src="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3164523/tumblr_l5i5egygMs1qc63yeo1_500_large.jpg?1280242068" border="0" alt="" /></a>Being in paediatrics actually brought me a roller coaster of emotions. Kids can be very cute and seeing them smile and playing around can just make your day better, especially when you see them improve day by day. But at times, it can be rather annoying, especially when all babies cry at the same time like an orchestra in the neonatal ward when it comes to feeding time.. or when they become so fretful during examination. But i can understand why.. it's because we keep poking them with needles and everytime they see us, we are just like scary monsters that will harm them; crying is their only weapon and defence mechanism towards us..haha=p.. Seeing sick kids can also be rather depressing, especially seeing those babies in NICU and how their parents must have felt so helpless seeing their baby that way, it just makes my heart ache.. or when a child needs prolonged hospital stay and isolation and he keeps asking me when he can go home and go to school, i feel so sorry for him because he is deprived of the normal and happy life that a child at his age should have. The sight of child dying in front of your eyes and the mother weeping beside the child is always painful to watch. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">4 months of being in the department, i had my share of ups and down but i think i am pretty lucky because most of my memories were good ones. The workload might be overwhelming at times but the team and people you work with will make all the difference. I am glad to work with a group of nice specialist who has always been my great teachers. I am happy to have nice MOs around where i can call for help or consult when i need. I am lucky to have a group of nice colleagues who were ever helpful and seniors who offer me good advice. I am thankful to have nice nurses who will offer to help when i fail to set a line or trace the results for me when i am having a busy day. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3688169/4948771932_213d8621af_z_large.jpg?1283453994"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 361px;" src="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3688169/4948771932_213d8621af_z_large.jpg?1283453994" border="0" alt="" /></a>It's very satisfying when u manage a patient and when your MO or specialist sees the patient, they just say " continue as planned" because you know you have made the right decision. It is also very happy and excited when u see backflow of blood through the blue needle or when u get to flush the branula without fail because you know that you've succeeded in taking blood and setting the line. It's also very honoured to have 4 MO telling you at different times on the same day that you did a very good presentation. I believe that God was with me every step of the way because i have encountered miracles when things seem so impossible; like how i needed to perform an SPA and i was lucky enough to get one during my oncall day, or how i manage to get 2 LP just within 2 days when i desperately need one. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I am going to medical next, one of the posting i dread the most because of the workload and the ward's condition, but i know God has everything planned out for me and there is a reason why the next one he wants me to go is medical. One of my MO once told me:</div><div style="text-align: justify;"> </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">You will learn something in each posting.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">In Paediatrics, you learn to be Responsible,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">In Medical, you learn to be Hardworking</div><div style="text-align: justify;">In Surgical, you learn Teamwork</div><div style="text-align: justify;">In O & G, you learn to Document well</div><div style="text-align: justify;">In Ortho, you learn to be Independent</div><div style="text-align: justify;">In A & E, you learn to be Confident</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Take everything from each posting and you will be a good doctor.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3851012/tumblr_l6d19lxd4x1qc4598o1_500_large.jpg?1284254172"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 429px;" src="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3851012/tumblr_l6d19lxd4x1qc4598o1_500_large.jpg?1284254172" border="0" alt="" /></a>It is very inspiring and i will definitely remember this good advice. My ward specialist asked me on my last day " What would you tell others about paeds?'" and my answer was " I will miss paeds" and i really mean it. I will be missing Paeds and everyone in the department a lot!! Thank you for the wonderful memories and experience. Do remember me too!! =) <span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(28, 42, 71); font-weight: bold; line-height: 20px; font-family:'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif;">♥♥♥</span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-23568706478777196182010-09-05T02:55:00.000-07:002010-09-05T03:23:44.217-07:00Graduation Day<div style="text-align: center;"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGKG1V4hSQnrkf3PEDhbEeoBLsk9E7kipfZ2WKzKwOPV0xn6ThWFN-jRuviAMmk0Vx8aJVqOYaJ7gpYfXCc0FP5BPQehscS4cn2aGBvx5hY-LuKc2Y0MBeRm44PcgVbk9_8PR5esNIB8Cn/s400/DSC03744.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513367548798112242" border="0" /> with wai cheng and choong tatt, the once " cat and dog couple" XD<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEipEjd9xjJxMiRU0JbkJzy1fqjxvpNbNYA2wcfwAK0c28QW3da9FjBOUdvKAXoaeytfOtwIYaMUBKZ8eM_1SviSuhSDTi3_DOeVvUxBooPdjuLMA3IFQmX6Qip_kGnKvlpWfvxHb_Z0CQYa/s1600/DSC03746.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 253px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEipEjd9xjJxMiRU0JbkJzy1fqjxvpNbNYA2wcfwAK0c28QW3da9FjBOUdvKAXoaeytfOtwIYaMUBKZ8eM_1SviSuhSDTi3_DOeVvUxBooPdjuLMA3IFQmX6Qip_kGnKvlpWfvxHb_Z0CQYa/s400/DSC03746.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513372745361591570" border="0" /></a>My beloved family<br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh3Qkejad6SJPzgMXCCfcZXg-s8KXq_xP4g2O7tt7d9d7cpyQdXgWYm0qjoy8-X7wgIak-rISMgo1LAw9J5GtqruxYYvRxMSq-PAB_s2yWWAxUICWE8906lYm9n9uyz6ImkPGYklgqsU2mK/s1600/DSC03747.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh3Qkejad6SJPzgMXCCfcZXg-s8KXq_xP4g2O7tt7d9d7cpyQdXgWYm0qjoy8-X7wgIak-rISMgo1LAw9J5GtqruxYYvRxMSq-PAB_s2yWWAxUICWE8906lYm9n9uyz6ImkPGYklgqsU2mK/s400/DSC03747.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513367538926886450" border="0" /></a>My Daddy and Mummy..my support, shelter and comfort of all times<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoZAYPnvDe8OoNm0Y1MoUFKnczHy88E5sK0hxq_FSXTW2ClQowluNXNAXnk9s18ix4n5M3BNy7gr61lEuQF25SnpDO7SxqzweS8LcJP9zh0oTRE7-hD7-0xlueIhLy7JIbitM2uUSSYFbF/s1600/DSC03752.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoZAYPnvDe8OoNm0Y1MoUFKnczHy88E5sK0hxq_FSXTW2ClQowluNXNAXnk9s18ix4n5M3BNy7gr61lEuQF25SnpDO7SxqzweS8LcJP9zh0oTRE7-hD7-0xlueIhLy7JIbitM2uUSSYFbF/s400/DSC03752.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513367534898021778" border="0" /></a>I finally got to pose with a big bear for my graduation!!<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGJSMZHG3Plp_UCUcyw3d64jMBpsFpXcMp4MaMLIxqr6Z1zNBeuJuZqdOjWdKiQncGXjQ9LgLuB2pSUaGcLq89tdiHIpO16lH70PiVgN1fKLLYjYYVrV-RETwzzsNmpH9ZBB-awMgfdfwX/s1600/DSC03759.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGJSMZHG3Plp_UCUcyw3d64jMBpsFpXcMp4MaMLIxqr6Z1zNBeuJuZqdOjWdKiQncGXjQ9LgLuB2pSUaGcLq89tdiHIpO16lH70PiVgN1fKLLYjYYVrV-RETwzzsNmpH9ZBB-awMgfdfwX/s400/DSC03759.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513367526988288978" border="0" /></a>Sisters forever<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwK8NBNRE403exWj-JSmoAQpES3OsK3lxDeF2bda6hInSDKoPgpE9uxR2ngQuFdWcxf4DZM-PV0vSP6dRcNX5KAFluch0Nv8HKzXZh6Tpde8z3CoflCwSPR9k8ddJTxV7V0p2qti2L8JuE/s1600/DSC03812.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwK8NBNRE403exWj-JSmoAQpES3OsK3lxDeF2bda6hInSDKoPgpE9uxR2ngQuFdWcxf4DZM-PV0vSP6dRcNX5KAFluch0Nv8HKzXZh6Tpde8z3CoflCwSPR9k8ddJTxV7V0p2qti2L8JuE/s400/DSC03812.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513367112821065634" border="0" /></a>It's my greatest honour and privilege to join this buddyline=)<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLovkzotDaXBllPmvIb4eANL8U7l1kwxZ0YInqu4-35ZV8YJ48cpgHG9FPst3qw7-uwaN3F8DTb3OXMr8zGfaGtdEXPOqDxU5ZrsKDNbl1kojpU7wSUsAbRr_izVEG6sluJfyS-ifOLXIQ/s1600/DSC03821.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLovkzotDaXBllPmvIb4eANL8U7l1kwxZ0YInqu4-35ZV8YJ48cpgHG9FPst3qw7-uwaN3F8DTb3OXMr8zGfaGtdEXPOqDxU5ZrsKDNbl1kojpU7wSUsAbRr_izVEG6sluJfyS-ifOLXIQ/s400/DSC03821.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513367105275865794" border="0" /></a>My of my study groupmate and bestmates.. missing Chan Yee Mang<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqluRMPYi3ZidYLqXuONW_XSmr_5VW37ifGv9Dvo2_DRP65ulJUM4393riLE5fVUQqMEukKVYCNSoVNa8EO6DRwZzfZKYmDSqO07MO1YzlznlfcSzc8mMVSZh7RYS2QTcwaFpaBFWR__Qv/s1600/DSC03843+%282%29.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqluRMPYi3ZidYLqXuONW_XSmr_5VW37ifGv9Dvo2_DRP65ulJUM4393riLE5fVUQqMEukKVYCNSoVNa8EO6DRwZzfZKYmDSqO07MO1YzlznlfcSzc8mMVSZh7RYS2QTcwaFpaBFWR__Qv/s400/DSC03843+%282%29.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513367099854251778" border="0" /></a>With Maggie Ah Yee.. My caretaker when i was a baby=)<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgxs0hMbBecxyVrD7P50_tEqHOA7mKm5xTIA7vo2GJM6Omrbabq-oPRRMYOGjo9Mg5F4jWoUL2sTmj5RA9nzBLl4xQYNvnK7yLbQ_Xe6_sqOeuSosJ4cKXikVUYhesLNOYGlTTqTh58tYNw/s1600/DSC03855.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgxs0hMbBecxyVrD7P50_tEqHOA7mKm5xTIA7vo2GJM6Omrbabq-oPRRMYOGjo9Mg5F4jWoUL2sTmj5RA9nzBLl4xQYNvnK7yLbQ_Xe6_sqOeuSosJ4cKXikVUYhesLNOYGlTTqTh58tYNw/s400/DSC03855.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513367090541896402" border="0" /></a>Now, this is Maggie Ah Yee's baby=)<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjfUDHrPjRqn4kGy8b1BIS3b5cqYWvjvHRPoyLZTVVxbMNVDpt-SVZsicVwzc1DCS0RKqHidZLcNfuqloeDgPI3KzW-f5hH_ZEratK7DUd07IxsbxiPeba90XGxUSn_anikddq1o33_Jkj1/s1600/DSC03857.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjfUDHrPjRqn4kGy8b1BIS3b5cqYWvjvHRPoyLZTVVxbMNVDpt-SVZsicVwzc1DCS0RKqHidZLcNfuqloeDgPI3KzW-f5hH_ZEratK7DUd07IxsbxiPeba90XGxUSn_anikddq1o33_Jkj1/s400/DSC03857.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513367080356296386" border="0" /></a>Big happy family..Thank you for all the support<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtV5E5NwaYBCHQhMj0k_nG91Q0hrt2OxWVAwgRnBuEZqGEdoaZbtranHCjgIibxueMskcAE4w17tVMkpAY5VRL96JObViTvglE9pNvj7Y164-mBRHmfbPNS3Lxr5Uo87fslpHQ3JIGg-uw/s1600/DSC03863.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtV5E5NwaYBCHQhMj0k_nG91Q0hrt2OxWVAwgRnBuEZqGEdoaZbtranHCjgIibxueMskcAE4w17tVMkpAY5VRL96JObViTvglE9pNvj7Y164-mBRHmfbPNS3Lxr5Uo87fslpHQ3JIGg-uw/s400/DSC03863.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513366353267775394" border="0" /></a>Willl be waiting to attend ur graduation, Justin!!<br /><br /></div></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-48438662253546171892010-08-26T23:55:00.000-07:002010-08-27T01:58:30.907-07:00The End of a Journey, The Start of a New DestinyI started schooling at the age of 5, going through the same process like most kids do.. entering kindergarten, then primary and secondary school. After SPM, there were dreams about going overseas to further my studies but they were just dreams that never came true. I went on with my pre-u studies and later somehow got into medical school. After 5 years, now this is it.. I am finally and officially a graduate. No more a student. Now u might think that means:<div><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/2228777/4345730424_119a1039af_large.jpg?1273729876"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 333px;" src="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/2228777/4345730424_119a1039af_large.jpg?1273729876" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><b>No more worries and sleepless nights because of exams </b></div><div>Totally not true.. I still have palpitations worrying about assessments and the possibility of getting extended for each posting.. and not to mention the worries about screwing up; making a wrong decision and judgement at the cost of a patient's life..</div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://whi.s3.leg.entries.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/20090319043949.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 333px;" src="http://whi.s3.leg.entries.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/20090319043949.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><b><br /></b></div><div><b>Yay, no more case summaries and reports to do</b></div><div>Also not true.. Now i have discharge summaries everyday, and for those who need follow-up, need to write it in 2 copies.. Previously, it was just 1 or 2 case summaries in a month or 2.</div><b><div><b><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3225721/tumblr_l6l75845lx1qb2ahqo1_500_large.jpg?1280856658"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 324px;" src="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3225721/tumblr_l6l75845lx1qb2ahqo1_500_large.jpg?1280856658" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal; "><b>At least now u get paid for ur oncalls and all the ward work u do</b></span></b></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">Well, partly true, u get paid for what u do but that also means your work is tripled and much much more than what u do during medical school.. and you get a taste of working 36 hours straight and how your brain starts to slow down and your eyes closing without you knowing when your hands are still moving</span></div><div><b><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://whi.s3.leg.entries.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/20090414184939.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 274px; height: 400px;" src="http://whi.s3.leg.entries.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/20090414184939.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />U can finally get the privilledge of being called as a "dr" instead of "ms"</b></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">Well, i personally don't feel excited about that at all.. With that title comes great responsibility and you have literally lost the priviledge of saying things like " i'm not sure" or "i don't know" or "i'm just a medical student" because people expect you to know everything under the sun.</span></div><div><br /></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/2447548/4664120732_755a729769_large.jpg?1275503447"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 362px;" src="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/2447548/4664120732_755a729769_large.jpg?1275503447" border="0" alt="" /></a><b><br /></b></div><div><b>I will lose weight when i start working</b></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">This one is subjective but this theory has not hold true for me yet..haha.. But yeah, that's one of my main motivation especially when i am very busy and have to run up and down</span></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3570659/tumblr_l7dd9a0wmQ1qzli6fo1_500_large.jpg?1282858971"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 333px;" src="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3570659/tumblr_l7dd9a0wmQ1qzli6fo1_500_large.jpg?1282858971" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">So yeah, i miss being a student, i miss being young and not having much commitment, but that's life and the phase that you go through..I'm almost 3 months into working life, there's still so much more for me to learn and explore. Each day holds an opportunity to gain new things. Everyday is a new day with new things to look forward to. </span></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3409435/tumblr_l78bbsIxbt1qccg0zo1_500_large.jpg?1281987992"><img style="text-align: left;display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; cursor: pointer; width: 500px; height: 375px; " src="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/3409435/tumblr_l78bbsIxbt1qccg0zo1_500_large.jpg?1281987992" border="0" alt="" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">I am glad that i can tick the first item on this list, not so sure about the second one yet, for the moment i don't find myself loving it but at the same time i don't hate it as well.. I wonder what is awaiting me next.. A beautiful wedding maybe??..haha..keeping my fingers crossed!! =)</span></b>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-26295231559783403262010-07-01T05:29:00.000-07:002010-07-01T06:30:44.992-07:00Slow and Safe or Fast and Efficient??<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/2441566/tumblr_l3d4cdF65t1qamjjdo1_500_large.jpg?1275443293"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 334px;" src="http://whi.s3.prod.lg1x8.simplecdn.net/images/2441566/tumblr_l3d4cdF65t1qamjjdo1_500_large.jpg?1275443293" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: justify;">Haven't been updating my blog for so long, but just feeling like writing an entry today. Is it better to be slow and safe or fast and efficient?? I am currently working in an environment that needs me to be fast, safe and efficient. But sadly i can't seem to keep up with everyone's pace. I am a very indecisive person, so that really slows me down in many things. Day in, day out, i need to decide things like when do i start an IV drip, or when do i off it, or whether or not it's safe to discharge a patient. A lot of things will be going through my mind. What if after i decide to off drip, patient gets dehydrated and becomes worst?? What if when i decide to discharge a patient home, his condition worsens at home and he is readmitted again?? For that reason, i will be extra careful and will look into a lot of details and after much consideration, then i would decide on what to do or write. I don't want to screw up because it's my patient's life and also my future at stake. I don't want to go home worrying if what i did just now was correct or not just because i did things in a rush. But because I am slow, others have to do more and i really feel bad about that. I always offer to do more but my colleagues are very nice people and we have very good teamwork, so they will always help finish up what is left. I am so sorry that i am slow. I am so sorry that you all have to do more than you have to. I am also trying my best to keep up the pace and to work faster. I may be slow, but i am willing to learn and improve. I just need more time and I hope you all can understand. Responsibility, credibility and competency; being in this profession u need to have it all. It's really hard for me. I can't see my future now, just trying to survive as each day comes.. Trying to search my soul..Trying to stay alive and keep my patients alive.. </div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-65783806170298040082010-05-17T00:50:00.000-07:002010-05-17T11:35:32.781-07:00♥ Graduation gift from Mummy ♥<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03214.jpg?t=1274120690"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 480px; height: 640px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03214.jpg?t=1274120690" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><div>Got my graduation gift from my beloved Mummy yesterday=).. Fell in love with a watch from Fossil since i first saw it and for the past few weeks, had been going to the Fossil website to look at it every now and then.. And yay it's finally mine!!..haha.. Actually everything seems to fall in the right place at the right time. A few weeks ago, when i was in Thailand, my watch suddenly ceased to function and when i came back, dad brought it to a watch shop to get it repaired, but it was beyond repair. So it was time to get a new watch!!=)..Well, i must say this is a splurge item, never spend so much on a watch before.. Thanks a lot mummy!! Love ya~~ Muacks <span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;font-size:medium;">♥♥♥♥♥</span></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-58787352290668591642010-05-07T01:37:00.000-07:002010-05-10T07:00:27.254-07:00PD trip<div>PD trip was fun!! Short and simple but yet enjoyable. From a simple game of "congkak" that relieved our childhood memories to a simple meal of steamboat that tasted so good after a day at the beach; sometimes it is the simplest things in life that brings us joy. Had a great bonding time with my beloved ex-roomie, study groupmates and extended studygroupmates; these are people who walked with me during the ups and downs of my university life. Well, i would let the pictures do the talking this time. Here are a few of my favourite captures during the trip, had fun taking candid shots and fun pictures=).</div><div><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC02950.jpg?t=1273250257"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 640px; height: 480px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC02950.jpg?t=1273250257" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">The fabulous 8=)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥</span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC02990-1.jpg?t=1273250258"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 640px; height: 480px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC02990-1.jpg?t=1273250258" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">A picture by the beach</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥</span></span></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03075.jpg?t=1273250302"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 480px; height: 640px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03075.jpg?t=1273250302" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">Cute brand new sandal from thailand</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥</span></span></div></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC02991-1.jpg?t=1273250554"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 640px; height: 480px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC02991-1.jpg?t=1273250554" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ sand art ♥</span></span></div></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC02992.jpg?t=1273250526"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 640px; height: 480px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC02992.jpg?t=1273250526" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ having fun in the sea ♥</span></span></div></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03010.jpg?t=1273249787"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 640px; height: 480px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03010.jpg?t=1273249787" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ banana boat + speed boat ride ♥</span></span></div></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC02994.jpg?t=1273249385"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 640px; height: 480px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC02994.jpg?t=1273249385" border="0" alt="" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ something cool in the midst of the heat ♥</span></span></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03065.jpg?t=1273249652"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 480px; height: 640px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03065.jpg?t=1273249652" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ the famous jumping shot is a must!! ♥</span></span></div></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03064.jpg?t=1273249614"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 480px; height: 640px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03064.jpg?t=1273249614" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ Yeah!! Jump, Jump, JUmp!! ♥</span></span></div></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03050.jpg?t=1273249639"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 640px; height: 480px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03050.jpg?t=1273249639" border="0" alt="" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ sexy beach babes XD ♥</span></span></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03053.jpg?t=1273249802"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 480px; height: 640px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03053.jpg?t=1273249802" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ sexy beach hunks XD ♥</span></span></div></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03074.jpg?t=1273249408"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 480px; height: 640px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03074.jpg?t=1273249408" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ Nice effect!! ♥</span></span></div></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03035.jpg?t=1273249234"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 480px; height: 640px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03035.jpg?t=1273249234" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ relieving childhood memories ♥</span></span></div></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03057.jpg?t=1273249225"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 480px; height: 640px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03057.jpg?t=1273249225" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ model posing for the camera ♥</span></span></div></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/PDtrip.jpg?t=1273249222"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 640px; height: 457px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/PDtrip.jpg?t=1273249222" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ of course, we can't forget this in every trip..DELICIOUS FOOD!!!=) ♥</span></span></div></div><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03113.jpg?t=1273249063"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 640px; height: 368px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/DSC03113.jpg?t=1273249063" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(60, 38, 14); line-height: 18px; font-family:Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"> ♥ Thanks to our host, Si Lei and her mum=) ♥</span></span></div><div><br /></div><div><i>p/s: supposed to blog about my phuket-bangkok trip 1st, but it's very long..haha.. will blog about it soon=))</i></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-16797770323572744382010-04-13T07:30:00.000-07:002010-04-13T08:44:53.155-07:00Happy Birthday Pseudobuddy!! =)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/IMG_0099.jpg?t=1271173201"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 640px; height: 480px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/IMG_0099.jpg?t=1271173201" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b>This post is dedicated to my dearest pseudobuddy</b></span><br /></span><br /><div style="text-align: center;">When we first met in a school hall in Banting, you were in sitting in front of me.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Months later, I managed to enter into UM medicine and then i met you again during orientation and Haluansiswa.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">When you told me you wanted to take me as your pseudobuddy, I was touched and felt blessed.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">I still remembered how you laughed at me because I haven't been to Murni although it was my 2nd year in UM, thank you for introducing Murni to me=)</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Enjoyed the outings and chat we had together.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Thank you for being like a big brother to me and always taking care of me.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Thank you for coming all the way to UT to teach us ECG despite being sick at that time, the ECG notes really helped me a lot during my clinical years.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b>To my dearest senior, pseudo-buddy and big bro,</b></span></div><div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b> Happy Birthday Dr Lim Han Sim=)</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1558241895798908241.post-85815151686967891442010-04-12T10:23:00.000-07:002010-04-13T08:47:05.785-07:00♥ Memories of Popo ♥<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/Picture1.jpg?t=1271167122"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 481px; height: 640px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/Picture1.jpg?t=1271167122" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">My popo was one of the longest and best memories that I had as far as i could remember. Popo is what i used to call my maternal grandmother. When i was small and my parents had to go to work, she was the one who took care of me. I spent most of my time during my childhood and schooling days at popo's house.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Back then, popo owned a cushion sofa. During my primary school days, one of my favourite activity was to stack up the cushions and pretend i'm going on a bus; the cushion being the stairs, the sofa being the bus=) ( i don't know why i like bus back then, but during secondary school when i had the chance to go to school by bus, i didn't like it at all..haha). Being the typical girl, i enjoyed playing " masak-masak" with my sis and cousins. At times, popo would make her own noodle with her noodle maker and we would wait for her to give us the leftovers so that we could pretend serving our guest with real food.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">During my early secondary school years, my classes were in the afternoons so dad had to send us to popo house early morning before going to school. I missed the times how popo would trick us into waking up by telling us it's 1 hour later than the actual time. We knew her trick but we would always look forward to the breakfast she prepared for us. I missed her famous pancakes and fried nien gao. Popo was a great cook but you know what's the best part?? The best part is she knows what everyone likes and how everyone wants their food. She knows that i don't eat spicy stuff, so she always make her curry and nasi lemak sambal less spicy. She knows how i like my red bean soup, so whenever there's red bean soup, she would prepare santan for me.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">One of my vivid memories of popo is popo and her yellow bicycle. When i was small and could fit in the basket, she would put me into the small basket in front of the bicycle and ferry me around. There were times we would patiently wait for her to come back on her bicycle from a dinner bringing us desserts which she would pack specially for us. When i was in standard 4, popo would send me to school using that bicycle.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Then there were memories of popo and her TV. Watching television was one of her favourite pastime. She would sit on her lazy chair, but after a while she would doze off and I would have to wake her up a few times. I love watching Taiwan X-Files back then but I was too afraid to watch it at home because mummy and daddy will go to bed early and i will be left watching it alone. So there will be occasional sleepovers at popo house just to watch tv because popo would sleep quite late at night. When winter solstice arrives, i would sleep over at her place and we would make tang yuan together while watching rented TVB tapes ( yeah, back then was tape, not like VCD and DVD now=p).</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Popo spent a lot of time on the phone. She would call my mum and aunt and she would receive a lot of calls from her sisters and relatives as well and they could talk for hours. Whenever i got my results for major exams, she would be busy calling everyone telling them how well I did. She would always call everyone to ask if everything's going well. When i left home for matriculation and university, we communicated with each other occasional through the phone.</div><div></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">In 2006, her health began to deteriorate. She began to have frequent shortness of breath and prolonged cough. The doctor diagnosed her to have bronchiectasis and that was how i get to learn about bronchiectasis even before my clinical years. Even during the times she was sick, she was still busy taking care of everyone and remained cheerful. She was always the one uniting everyone together. It was only during one of her last hospital stay in Sunway that i saw her sadness and suffering in her eyes. It broke my heart seeing her that way.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Her health went on to deteriorate day by day and there was one time that i dreaded getting calls from home for fear that it's a call to deliver bad news to me. The day finally came when she had to leave us forever, it was at this very date exactly 2 years ago. Well, God was good to me because at least I get to keep her for 2 years after the initial diagnosis before God took her away and i was there to see her one last time before they unplug the life-support machine. It was my first experience of losing someone so dear to me. That very night she left us, I dreamt of her wearing her usual sarong, cooking my favourite dish and asking me to prepare containers because she wants to distribute it to my aunts and uncles. I was the first to dream of her and my aunts told me it's because she loved me the most; I don't know how significant dreams can be but that was really an honour and it really touched my heart.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/Picture2.jpg?t=1271167613"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 640px; height: 522px;" src="http://i960.photobucket.com/albums/ae82/calyn86/Picture2.jpg?t=1271167613" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><br /></i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i><br /></i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i><br /></i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i><br /></i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i>Grandma, where are you now?</i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i>I'm calling you, can you hear me?</i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i>Can you see my hardwork and success?</i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i>I'm calling you, can you hear me?</i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i><br /></i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i>Grandma, are you living well now?</i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i>Is there anyone taking good care of you?</i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i>Hopefully in the afterlife i will be able to call you grandma again</i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i><br /></i></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i>Quoted lyric from hokkien song Grandma's words </i></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:12px;"><h1 id="watch-headline-title" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background- font-weight: bold; height: 23px; max-height: 23px; line-height: 23px; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; font-size:1.6666em;color:transparent;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:-webkit-xxx-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; font-size:12px;"><h1 id="watch-headline-title" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 5px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; font-weight: bold; height: 23px; max-height: 23px; line-height: 23px; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; font-size:1.6666em;"><span class="" title="Hokkien Pop Song: Grandma's Words (阿嬤的話)" style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-top-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-left-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-color: initial; outline-width: 0px; outline-style: initial; outline-color: initial; background-image: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial; background- background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; font-size:20px;color:transparent;">阿嬤的話</span></h1></span></span></h1></span><div style="text-align: justify;"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oYOEC1sxH-Y">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oYOEC1sxH-Y</a></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Popo, i want to dedicate my success to you. Thank you for always giving me the best things in life . I will always miss you and love you forever ♥ ~</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><i><br /></i></div></div>~calyn~http://www.blogger.com/profile/17030321437068288746noreply@blogger.com5