The End of a Journey, The Start of a New Destiny

I started schooling at the age of 5, going through the same process like most kids do.. entering kindergarten, then primary and secondary school. After SPM, there were dreams about going overseas to further my studies but they were just dreams that never came true. I went on with my pre-u studies and later somehow got into medical school. After 5 years, now this is it.. I am finally and officially a graduate. No more a student. Now u might think that means:

No more worries and sleepless nights because of exams

Totally not true.. I still have palpitations worrying about assessments and the possibility of getting extended for each posting.. and not to mention the worries about screwing up; making a wrong decision and judgement at the cost of a patient's life..

Yay, no more case summaries and reports to do

Also not true.. Now i have discharge summaries everyday, and for those who need follow-up, need to write it in 2 copies.. Previously, it was just 1 or 2 case summaries in a month or 2.

At least now u get paid for ur oncalls and all the ward work u do

Well, partly true, u get paid for what u do but that also means your work is tripled and much much more than what u do during medical school.. and you get a taste of working 36 hours straight and how your brain starts to slow down and your eyes closing without you knowing when your hands are still moving

U can finally get the privilledge of being called as a "dr" instead of "ms"

Well, i personally don't feel excited about that at all.. With that title comes great responsibility and you have literally lost the priviledge of saying things like " i'm not sure" or "i don't know" or "i'm just a medical student" because people expect you to know everything under the sun.

I will lose weight when i start working

This one is subjective but this theory has not hold true for me yet..haha.. But yeah, that's one of my main motivation especially when i am very busy and have to run up and down

So yeah, i miss being a student, i miss being young and not having much commitment, but that's life and the phase that you go through..I'm almost 3 months into working life, there's still so much more for me to learn and explore. Each day holds an opportunity to gain new things. Everyday is a new day with new things to look forward to.

I am glad that i can tick the first item on this list, not so sure about the second one yet, for the moment i don't find myself loving it but at the same time i don't hate it as well.. I wonder what is awaiting me next.. A beautiful wedding maybe??..haha..keeping my fingers crossed!! =)